soo, here we go !
after days flows become week. finally I'm done ! it's officially DONE !
and when there was another one come. and I try, dan lagi2 itu yang salah. another wrong man! OH MY GEEZ ! why should I fall in the same hole for the second times ?
fortunately, it's not too deep yet. and I'm so sorry to my friend beacause you don't tell me anything.
That's too bad ! REALLY BAD !

DARN ! einyweys !
me ? yep ! gue liburan lagi. what ? don't ask me about that ! karna gw juga bngung sekolah gw hobi bgt ngasih liburan ke anak muridnya. sdngkan my nyokap and my bokap ngomel2 di rmh "KAMU LIBUR LAGI ?!" sebenarnya gw bngung sama penytaan yang ini.
mereka bilang itu karna:
1. mereka kesel karna uang sekolah gw mahal bgt tapi liburnya kbnyakan ,atau
2. mereka kesel karna lagi2 gw dateng ke rumah dan menghabiskan jatah nasi ?
okeey. itu masih mnjadi misteri.

and guys ! How's your day ? mine ?
well, liburan gw, gw habiskan dngan kerja sama saya punya mamah di kantornya. lumayan nambah uang jajan. muehehehe :p
and minggu ini (kayaknya) gw bkalan gajian ! and YES ! GW MAKMURR UNTUK MINGGU2 KE DEPANNYA ! haha.

hmm. sekolah gw dpet tawaran bwt pergi ke prancis untuk 20 org. bayar 20 jeti. gw ikutt. jadi. hrs nabung dr skrng. trus tiba2 tadi pagi nyokap gw bilang
"kaak, kan pas mamah jmput kamu kmren, mamah nanya ke TUnya soal yang kalian pergi ke Prancis itu. trus, kata TUnya blum pasti. blum ad keputusan dr yayasan"
DARN ! sumpah klo yang ini gak jadi pergi gue benciii benciiiiiiiiiii bangeet !
eh tp enggak juga siih, stidaknya gw bisa pulang kampung dan dapet banyak salam tempel disana (Y) haha.

mm. well, i just hate it !
Guys come on ! klo kalian gak mw bersikap serius at least don't give us a signal okey ? I hate it ! elo itu playboy atau lo emang terlalu baik jadi orang ?
You just a mean person you know ! you give the same signal ! repeat SAME SIGNAL to another girl. what did you mean huh ?

btw, sekolah gw bakal masuk besok and minggu dpan bakal UTS.
ulang UTS ! kalian tau ? MIDTEST ! sucks ! skolah gw kbnyakan libur. tp pas masuk dan bljr pikiran gw kmbali ke libur. dan tiba2 gw di hadapkan dngan kenyataan bahwa GUE BKALAN ADA MID-TEST 2 MINGGU LAGI ! Brb Mati.
honestly, sejak sem. 2 keinginan gw belajar udah jelek banget. pikiran mau cabuuut mulu. cmn yaah, karna emang gw dasarnya anak baik sih ya. jadinya gw gak jadi2 tuh cabuut. haha :p but seriously guys ! ini tuh parah ! gw malah malas belajarnya pas semester 2 ?!! urrggh ! I NEED MOTIVATION ! MOTIVATION !
seandainya sekolah cmn masuk belajar pulang main.
gak ad ulangan, gak ad tugas, gak ad rapot.
ini surga sayang INI SURGAA ! *digaplok*

OK ini cukup. gw butuh istirahaat ! OMG UTS ! brb mati.
teruslah demo kawan . berdemolah agar tidak ad ujian dan tetekbengek lainnya.
berdemolah.

ciao !
keep smile. be a miracle.
love ya XOXO

Soo guyyss. Here it is.
Dan dugaan gw bneer. I just hate love you knoooww ! It will end like this. So SUCKS !

Di saat gw sdang belajar to understand and try to enjoy the situation that he made.
He just go ! I don't know where and why. Dy pergi. Pergi gak tw kmna. Without permission. And NO CONTACT !
You know ? It's just hurt me a lot.

Lo hrs tau rasanya di saat hari2 lu mulai brisi dgan sms2 yg slalu datang dan menemani keseharian lo. And suddenly it's stop and not come again.
Gw gak tw apa yg salah atau gw emang salah tp gw gak tw.
Yg gw tw he just go and didn't tell me the reason.

Di saat gw anggap yg ini beda. Tp nyatanya sama aja and end like before with tears. *sigh*
Well He has to know how it hurts me a lot. Atau the boys harus selalu ber-attitude kayak gitu ? -,-

I'll try to find him. And yes. I found him. But he just acts like nothing happen before.
GOSH ! why they always act like that ?!! It just make me want to scream out loud in front if their face.

Bwt yg brsangkutan seandainya dy baca "kakak tw ? Keadaan apa yg kakak bwt skrng ? Can you just tell me my fault ? It's really disturbing me. :'("

Well he has to know. I just learn. Gw msh hrs bljr utk tingkat yg kaya gini. Dan trnyata sblum gw lulus pembelajaran itupun udah selesai.
Well, thank you so much ya kak for these weeks. God Bless You :'(

Soooo...
Here it is ! The time when I start learn how to love . Suddenly it was gone .
Can you ever imagine ?
Fortunately it was the beginning and doesn't hurt so deep . Thank you for leave me disaat ini semua blm terlalu dalaam .

The time when I try to open my heart again for another love . That love gone and (maybe) never come back .

Well, I thought better me close my heart first and let it all heal first .
Thank you for all
Thank you already put a smile on my face this several days .
Good Bye . God Bless you . :)

HEI GUYYSS !
I'm bored !
makanya gue balik sama Blog gw tercinta ini !
haha . jahat ya gue ? and YES ! that's me ! klo gw gak jahat don't ever call my name !
mhuaahahaha ! >:D
oke back to topic ! adn topicnya tuh apa ya ? . wait ! kita blm nentuin topic yaa ?
yaahh gak ush pake topic kali yaa .
just read it or leave it :p

hmm . hmm . ngmngin apa yaa ?
bnguung ! -,-
well, gue lagi liburan ! and it's a week already ! dan masih tersisa 2 hari liburan gue ! bahagia gak sih jadi guee ? HAHAHAHA !
tmen2 gue pada tau kmna liburannya .
and gue ! GUE MEEENN ! di rmh aja . duduk dpn komputer ALL DAAYY ! SHUT UP ! gue tau ini mengenaskan ! mengenaskan B A N G E T ! ! !
soo Guys ? ad yg butuh tmen jalan2 ? gue MAUU ! tapi dgn syarat jemput gue, bayarin gue, terus anterin gue pulang ke rumah ! :P haha . enggak canda .

gue lagi nungguin ade gue, dan menunggu sore .
mau main bulutangkis dpan rumaah !
lumayan buat nurunin berat badan selama liburan *sigh*
OH YAA ! gue blom cerita yaa ? wktu itu berat guee ! 52 KG !!
well, parah abis emang ! dan nyokap gue ! dari hari pertama ujiaan ! and sampai 3 hari berikutnya . dy terus2an bilaang "kaak, kamu kurangin donk jatah makan kamu." "kamu ntar klo udh gede baru genduut loh ." daan klo gue lg ngmbil mknan lagi pdahal 1 jam yg lalu gue baru makan nasi dy bilang "kamu makan lagi ? ckck ." *sigh*
yak dan akhirnya . gue pun menyeraah . dan mulai belajar mengurangi porsi makanan pas liburan . dan semoga gak batal juga pas masuk asrama ntaar (AMIIINN!)

and GUYS ! ad yang tau knpa udara panas bngeet ? apa matahari udah beranak-pinak skrang yaah ? atau emang neraka lagi bocor ? panas bnget sumpaah .
gue mau ke mall ah nyari lemari es yang ad laptopnya . jadinya gue OL dr lemari Es aja :p

oke sumpah ini panas bnget . udah dulu ya .
mau masuk ke kulkas dulu ..
bye !
and good luck with your holiday okeey ? ;)
take care ! :*

I hate to be falling in love

you know what ?
things that I really scare the most is falling in love ,
I just scared falling in love .
takut untuk sakit lagi . takut untuk kecewa lagi . dan takuut untuk jatuuh lagi .
gue takuuuttt , takuuut bngeett ,
takuuut saat gue lagi percayanya dia pergi dan menghancurkan semuanyaa .
di saaat gue lagi sayang2nya he will go and never come back . and he will leave me alone here . with cry and hurts .
gue takuuuutt . dia suatu hari bakalan pergii . and leaves me with my broken heart .

Love really sucks !
I just hate to be falling in love ! I hate when they will leave you ! just leave it dan beranggapan kalo gak ada apa2 yang terjadi sebelumnya antara kita ! I just want to slap their face ! segampang itu kah mereka bertingkah seperti itu ?

gue disini terdampar dalam dilema .
should I be falling in love again or just close my heart for awhile and let the pain from the past healed first .
well, gue disini gak menyalahkan salah satu gender . karna cewe juga ad yang sok jago bertingkah like a player ! and saat cewe ini jatuh ntar itu bakalan sakiit .

this life is sucks . why we should have love ?
love sucks . Me hate it so much . it will make you happy and laugh and at the same time it will make you cry and hurts .

hey boys ! can you just be faithfull to one girl for the long time ? is this your thank you for them that growing you up ? you should think how it feel klo hal yang SAMA menimpa kakak, adek, atau nyokap lo sendiri ?

Love sucks ! today they will make us happy, laugh, and smile all time. and tomorrow they will make you cry, painfull, and hurt .

I don't know what happen to me .
But me , already tired for all this lovesicks !
every time I fall, dissapointed and broken , I will always stand up again with my friend that always support me. but now ! I really wish . please earth let me love someone that also love me and now without dissapointed and broken again .
and please all this sick kasih ke orang lain aja !
biar mereka bisa menghargai sekaliii aja ! menghargai klo cinta itu sgat berharga . biar mereka bisa tau kalo hati itu gak bisa dimainin seenaknya aja like they play football .

I am dying .
why THEM ! can do this ? and I can't never hate them !
I really want to slap their face ! so then mreka bakal menghargai klo KITAA ! gak kaya pajangan yang bisa di samperiin kapan aja !
SUCKSSS !

Did you know guys ?
How it feels when someone who always give his best smile every morning suddenly gone ?
When he's the one who can make you get up from your thight sleep suddenly gone ? It's kinda hurt to lose someone who always feel your days .
When someone who always support you to do the things that you can't do it suddenly act like "I don't care" it really hurts . No one can support you and it makes you down .
You know what ?
I'm down .
Perubahan itu perlu tapi gak sesering ini dan gak sedahsyat ini .
Isn't wrong to like you ? I don't hope you to be mine ! I'm happy enough to know that You're my friend that's good enough already .
Come back please . Don't act like this . It's kinda childish you know ? that's hurt !
I want you who always smile to me every morning .
I want you who always teach me how to play basket .
I want you who always support me when I'm not believe in myself .
You already make big impact in my life and you want to leave it just like this ?

Gue lagi bngung !
I'm depressed . The only thing that I depend on suddenly gone . The only thing that can make me cheerfull again suddenly gone . The only thing who know me suddenly gone .
What's wrong ? Did I make a wrong things to you ? Told me !
Come back here !
Can we just be a friend ? A friend like yesterday ? Who laugh together . Cheating together . Sharing all stories . I miss ya dude . I miss to story all my experience in that day . I miss to laugh together when you told me some jokes .
I'd cry so many times until I can't cry anymore . You did the deepest thing and you want to leave it and didn't take it .
Heeeyy ! Come on !
I told ya different not like others .
But you just the sam boys who always act like a superhero for a moment and act like a bitch for the other moment !

oke . I'm too much talking .
I'm off . For you ! Yang ngerasa ! Smoga ngerti and it didn't make negative thinking in your mind .
Gbu !

hell-o !!
bwt semua yang ngerasa JARAAAAAANG bnget dapetin apa yang lu mau you should read this ! karna blogger ini sekarang sdnag merasa seperti itu . -__-"

adakah yang pernah ngerasain gak pernaaah ngerasain yang kalian mau ?
kalau pun pernah itu bklan JARAAAAANNNGG ! bnget terjadi .
I'm the one !!
kalian pernah pengen "something" tp "something" itu malah di ambil ama orang lain ! dan seenak jidatnya mereka memamerkan "something" itu dpn kita ? I'M THE ONE !
you know guys ? that's really hurt ! and TOTALLY HURT !
GUE SAKIIT !
SAKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT BNGEEET !
klo udh kaya bgni gue bkalan harus tetap berusaha cheerfull, smile ,and shows the world that "HELL-OW GUYS ! NOTHING HAPPEN TO ME OKAAY ?"
I hate thiss !
kapan gue bisa SHOW MY OWN FEELING !
klo gue bisa gue mau teriak sekenceng-kencengnya !
let all my feelings out ! or maybe gue pngen robek, gue benyek2. pokoknya gue ancurin "something" yang gue pengen itu jadinya gue gak ad alasan lagi buat merana !
ah SH*T !
WTF !!!

HATE THIS TIL DEATH !
GUE BENCIIII !
why should me !!
GUE SERING bnget ngerasaain bgni !
knpa gak orang lain ajah sih yang di kasih biar mereka ngerasa jugaa ! HELLO !! I want to be happy also with "something" that I really LOVE !
when I can got that "something" ?
I know I'm not perfect ! really not perfect ! But everybody punya hak ! to get what they waaanntt !!!
I HATE YOU !
YOU ALL !
ALL OF YOU WHO READ THIS !
huhuhu .
I'm down to the deepest earth surface !
he's the one who make me fly and he's the one who can only make me fall into my deepest sadness !
thanx to him !
I can't really hate you cause I love you !
you know what I feel right now ?
I want to slap your fu*king FACE with MY OWN HANDS !!!
ARRRGGGHHH !
I really want to hate you if I can !
ONLY IF I CAN !
hey !
thnx for all dude !
thank you so much !
YOU KNOW WHAT ??
I LOVE YOU ALREADY ! do you happy with that ? it's enough for you to see me DYING over here ? ENOUGH ? ENOOOUUGGGHHH !
Hheeeyyy ! gimme back my hearts that you stole from me !
GUE SEKARAAT TNPA HATI GUE TAUUU !!!!
huhuhu !
gimme back my heart please !
gimme back !
huhuhuhu
:'(