hei Readers :)
Gue2 malem rela2in posting lewat hape gak tau knpa, gue pngen bgt numpahin apa yg di hati gue skrng :((

Klo gue jujur, gue kesel emang kesel, kesel banget malah. Tp skrng malah gue yang kangen :((. Gue tau bukan dy tp adeknya yg kayak iblis, pdhl gue gak tw pnya salah sama adeknya ampe dy bisa sejahat itu. Well, karma does exist, gw gak bisa bales apa2.

I miss you big guy, miss you a lot. Oke fine gue bego emang, bego banget malah. Justru pas udh pergi baru nyadar, justru pas udh bgni baru deh *sigh*. We just spend a half month together but it's deep already, yahh mungkin buat kakak enggak yah, aku apasih gak penting haha :((

I miss your careness, miss your message, miss your chat.
Well, gw gak tw gue ke pedean atau apa, tp gue ngerasa dy msh nge-spy gue gak tw caranya gmna, ah kepedean doank kali yaaa, ckck. tp ini nyiksa bangett banget.

Kmren ad acra di skoolah dan di suruh nulis keinginan2 kita dan gue nulis, semoga gue dapet penjelasan dr semua ini, siapa yg iblis siapa yg jahat. Semoga aja terkabul, karna gw jg pngen tau apa yg terjadi ?

Anyway, banyak bgt tempat yg bikin gue flashback mendadak, termasuk kamar asrama yg biasa gw tidurin ini, dan itu nyiksa banget, aku masih inget inget banget gmna sikap kakak, kakak makasih banyak ya, aku udah sakit hati banget looh, :((

Kapan universe akan berpihak sama gue ? Perasaan gue mulu yang mellow, gue mulu yang sedih. Gue gak tau uda brpa bnyk air mata yg gw keluarin, klopun misalnya ini di awali buat ngerjain gue, mereka udah sukses berat, sukses-nya dobel malah, berhasil ngerjain gue dan berhasil ngancurin hidup gue. Skrng gw mw konsen ke UAS dan gak tw gmna caranya, pikiran gw masih kmna2. Hati gue masih sakiiiiiiit banget :((

minggu kmren gue test AFS wawancara which is bagian yg jadi kelemahan gue banget, gue gak bisa wawancara, tp sekolah tmpt gue di wawancara (sekolah negri) dewa banget ! Wi-Fi ampe EMPAT BIJI ! Dan kebetulan gue duduk di bawah wi-fi, dan mendownload 6 lagu, kalian tau apa ? Download-an selesai gak nyampe 15 menit !
Serius deh, klo sekolah gue begitu, gue akan dgn amat sangat setia masuk sekolah dngan senyum terpampang di wajah, haha.. Semoga aja. Amin amin amin

Oke tangan gue akhirnya pegel, udah dulu guys.
Untuk yg baca dan ngerasa you owe me many explanation big guys, banyak bgt penjelasan kak dan aku butuh :((

nite guys
"if you want a miracle be a miracle"
Good luck !
God bless ;)

P.S. : doain pengumuman AFS gue minggu besok ya :)
Bye :)
Bye world, bye blog, bye reader, bye big guys :)
Haha, see you soon okay :D

hari ini.gue tetapkan bad day ever !
pagi2 mood gue udah acak2an dan berlanjut ke siangnya.
sore-nya mobil gue di tabrak. and gue gak tw malam nanti apa.
gue gak tau apa makasudnya, tp pleasee gue udh cukup menderita jangan tambah lagi.
gue udah terlalu sakit hati, jangan bertingkah seperti gak terjadi apa2.
I need your explanation big guy, I need your reason.
please, jangan jadi pengecut.

Hari ini gue ancur2an banget banget banget,
mood gue berantakan, pikiran gue melayang2 gak tau kemana, dan parahnya besok ada wawancara AFS. Can I pass this ? :'(

mungkin temen gue bener, I have falling to you.
and lagi2 di waktu yang salah, what the hell is wrong with me.
gue harap bgt pas lo dateng at least you can give me explanation, I hate you ( I wish ) unfortunately, I can't hate you.

kamu masih utang penjelasan. I just wish you can read this. I don't need anything just your explanation, and pleeassee don't ever act like nothing happen between us before it's hurt me a lot. :'(

gue gak tau hari ini gw nangis brpa kali, dan berapa banyak air mata yg gue keluarin.
thank you yg udah bikin gue kayak gini. makasih banget :'( :'(

Thunder

Hei :)
Gw posting via my lovely mobile phone in the middle of the rain, and this fucking thunder storm.

I hate thunder storm ever !
Gw td lg asik2 nonton dan dgn hebat, keras, bangganya petir menyambar yang bunyinya really make me jump. And that's make me to turn off my television and now I don't know what I,m gonna do now.
F you thunder ! F ! -,-"

Anyway, hari ini hari libur dan bsok gw mrencnakan utk meliburkan diri. Hahaha. How's your guys holiday. I hope it's gonna be good. :)

Huft, I hope he still remember me and time when we going pass through it several months ago. I haven't falling in love with you yet. But you already feel my day. Hmm thank you ya. We walk on our own way, God bless you and I miss you :*

Hmmh.
Udh dulu deh ya. eh anyway, radit sama sherina putus ! So bad. Pdhl gw dukung bgt radith sama sherina. Maybe, that's the best for them just like me. :)

I hate this thunder storm !
Going to find another thing to do.
tmen gue lg di Bali ! Sial bgt emang ! Happy for them.
And.
"if you want a miracle, be a miracle"
:)
Okay I really have to stop this.
Bye guys ! Love ya ! Gbu
XOXO :*

hell-ow guys !
me back setelah udh lama gak update lagi.
hmm okay let's start.
soooo, I just finish my mid-test week, so the time for remedial has come !
yak, mid-test gue kali ini hancur lebur gw gak tw deh ntar remed brpa pelajaran -,-"
tp gw bkal ubah pas UAS ! amin amin amin

hari2 ini gue lg disibukkan dgn latihan nari buat misi budaya ke prancis bulan Juli ntar. so, tiap weekend gue hrs bolak-balik Bekasi - Pondok Indah bwt latihan. You guys can imagine brpa mahal ongkosnya ?

and gue jg hr Mnggu mw test AFS ! pray for me ya ! pray pray pray ! gue pngen bgt ikut AFS. pengen jalan2 ke negaranya, pngen dapet tmen2nya, pngen pengalaman. that's gonna be so cool. wish me luck readers ! wish me luck !

aaaaa ! nulis bgnian gue jd deg-degan sendiri. ckck
anyway (lagi) kmren di skolah gw ad prngtan hardiknas gitu jadi ada lomba cerdas cermat sama debat. gw ikut debat dan bodohnya gue udh siapin apa yg mw gue omongin tp bgtu berdiri dan dpt mic-nya semuanya blank dan tangan dan kaki gue gemeteran, bodoh emang. jadinya kelas gw gak menang deh -,-"

ohiya ! kakak kelas gue ad yg ke Swiss dr AFS ! aaaaa ! enak bgt ya dia ! gue mauuuuu banget ke swiss ! mau mau mau mau ! dapet coklatnya, dapet susu. uuu !pokoknya gue harus bisa ! I HAVE TO ! pray pray pray wish wish wish

aaa udh ah gw jadi deg-degan sendiri.
readers ! pray for me ya ! I really want to get that AFS ! aaaaaa ! wish wish wish !
bye readers ! muah muah :*

soo, here we go !
after days flows become week. finally I'm done ! it's officially DONE !
and when there was another one come. and I try, dan lagi2 itu yang salah. another wrong man! OH MY GEEZ ! why should I fall in the same hole for the second times ?
fortunately, it's not too deep yet. and I'm so sorry to my friend beacause you don't tell me anything.
That's too bad ! REALLY BAD !

DARN ! einyweys !
me ? yep ! gue liburan lagi. what ? don't ask me about that ! karna gw juga bngung sekolah gw hobi bgt ngasih liburan ke anak muridnya. sdngkan my nyokap and my bokap ngomel2 di rmh "KAMU LIBUR LAGI ?!" sebenarnya gw bngung sama penytaan yang ini.
mereka bilang itu karna:
1. mereka kesel karna uang sekolah gw mahal bgt tapi liburnya kbnyakan ,atau
2. mereka kesel karna lagi2 gw dateng ke rumah dan menghabiskan jatah nasi ?
okeey. itu masih mnjadi misteri.

and guys ! How's your day ? mine ?
well, liburan gw, gw habiskan dngan kerja sama saya punya mamah di kantornya. lumayan nambah uang jajan. muehehehe :p
and minggu ini (kayaknya) gw bkalan gajian ! and YES ! GW MAKMURR UNTUK MINGGU2 KE DEPANNYA ! haha.

hmm. sekolah gw dpet tawaran bwt pergi ke prancis untuk 20 org. bayar 20 jeti. gw ikutt. jadi. hrs nabung dr skrng. trus tiba2 tadi pagi nyokap gw bilang
"kaak, kan pas mamah jmput kamu kmren, mamah nanya ke TUnya soal yang kalian pergi ke Prancis itu. trus, kata TUnya blum pasti. blum ad keputusan dr yayasan"
DARN ! sumpah klo yang ini gak jadi pergi gue benciii benciiiiiiiiiii bangeet !
eh tp enggak juga siih, stidaknya gw bisa pulang kampung dan dapet banyak salam tempel disana (Y) haha.

mm. well, i just hate it !
Guys come on ! klo kalian gak mw bersikap serius at least don't give us a signal okey ? I hate it ! elo itu playboy atau lo emang terlalu baik jadi orang ?
You just a mean person you know ! you give the same signal ! repeat SAME SIGNAL to another girl. what did you mean huh ?

btw, sekolah gw bakal masuk besok and minggu dpan bakal UTS.
ulang UTS ! kalian tau ? MIDTEST ! sucks ! skolah gw kbnyakan libur. tp pas masuk dan bljr pikiran gw kmbali ke libur. dan tiba2 gw di hadapkan dngan kenyataan bahwa GUE BKALAN ADA MID-TEST 2 MINGGU LAGI ! Brb Mati.
honestly, sejak sem. 2 keinginan gw belajar udah jelek banget. pikiran mau cabuuut mulu. cmn yaah, karna emang gw dasarnya anak baik sih ya. jadinya gw gak jadi2 tuh cabuut. haha :p but seriously guys ! ini tuh parah ! gw malah malas belajarnya pas semester 2 ?!! urrggh ! I NEED MOTIVATION ! MOTIVATION !
seandainya sekolah cmn masuk belajar pulang main.
gak ad ulangan, gak ad tugas, gak ad rapot.
ini surga sayang INI SURGAA ! *digaplok*

OK ini cukup. gw butuh istirahaat ! OMG UTS ! brb mati.
teruslah demo kawan . berdemolah agar tidak ad ujian dan tetekbengek lainnya.
berdemolah.

ciao !
keep smile. be a miracle.
love ya XOXO

Soo guyyss. Here it is.
Dan dugaan gw bneer. I just hate love you knoooww ! It will end like this. So SUCKS !

Di saat gw sdang belajar to understand and try to enjoy the situation that he made.
He just go ! I don't know where and why. Dy pergi. Pergi gak tw kmna. Without permission. And NO CONTACT !
You know ? It's just hurt me a lot.

Lo hrs tau rasanya di saat hari2 lu mulai brisi dgan sms2 yg slalu datang dan menemani keseharian lo. And suddenly it's stop and not come again.
Gw gak tw apa yg salah atau gw emang salah tp gw gak tw.
Yg gw tw he just go and didn't tell me the reason.

Di saat gw anggap yg ini beda. Tp nyatanya sama aja and end like before with tears. *sigh*
Well He has to know how it hurts me a lot. Atau the boys harus selalu ber-attitude kayak gitu ? -,-

I'll try to find him. And yes. I found him. But he just acts like nothing happen before.
GOSH ! why they always act like that ?!! It just make me want to scream out loud in front if their face.

Bwt yg brsangkutan seandainya dy baca "kakak tw ? Keadaan apa yg kakak bwt skrng ? Can you just tell me my fault ? It's really disturbing me. :'("

Well he has to know. I just learn. Gw msh hrs bljr utk tingkat yg kaya gini. Dan trnyata sblum gw lulus pembelajaran itupun udah selesai.
Well, thank you so much ya kak for these weeks. God Bless You :'(

Soooo...
Here it is ! The time when I start learn how to love . Suddenly it was gone .
Can you ever imagine ?
Fortunately it was the beginning and doesn't hurt so deep . Thank you for leave me disaat ini semua blm terlalu dalaam .

The time when I try to open my heart again for another love . That love gone and (maybe) never come back .

Well, I thought better me close my heart first and let it all heal first .
Thank you for all
Thank you already put a smile on my face this several days .
Good Bye . God Bless you . :)